I’m really sad tonight. Just a lot on my mind about some stupid and serious things. I just want someone to vent to about all of this and not have to worry about them judging me for it all or freaking out on me for thinking such things. I need a friend but it sucks knowing that I’m really not super close to anyone anymore because of work or because of them not understanding me in any way. I’m not really sure where I’m going with this. I feel like I could smoke a pack of cigarettes to myself right now when I haven’t smoked anything in almost 8 months now. Having depression fucking sucks.